Song of Solomon 1:5,6, I am black, but comely, o ye daughters of Jerusalem, as the tents of Kedar, as the curtains of Solomon. (6) look not upon me, because I am black, the sun hath looked upon me: my mother’s children were angry with me; they made me the keeper of the vineyards; but mine own vineyard have I not kept.
All I can think about is to get back to the spiritual side of me you know the side that are connected to Jesus. Yes I’m missing my spiritual husband Jesus. Isaiah 54:5, for your Maker is your husband, the Lord of hosts is his name.
In the flesh I hasn’t been feeling like cuddling with Jesus the flesh will never feel like it. The bible says there’s no good in the flesh. I feel so ugly and ashamed because I haven’t been keeping my intimacy bar up with Him although He never ever let his down. I know that He loves me and to be honest I love Him too deep down in my spirit. Jesus makes sure my spirit get the message He’s sending me.
“A longing in my spirit and soul” I’m getting this sense that Jesus is always in my ear which is a good thing, He’s always nudging and tugging me I think to come back to my spiritual self, my one true self, my secret place so that we can spend quality time together.
The thing is I feel bad, I feel so ugly and darken by the flesh of my thoughts and mind they tend to gush me farther away from Him sometimes by worrying about other people and things. Oh! but I see Jesus He is not about to let this happen He tells me to stop worrying it’s not good pray for them but please do not worry. So He put a longing there so that I could find my way back to Him because He’s truly waiting for me to fall back into His arms again as He makes everything that I prayed for alright.
“To busy” I been busy with family affairs seeing about their needs although there’s nothing wrong with tending to others. But yeah trying to keep them inline and I came to realize I haven’t been inline myself taken the time out for me better yet “Jesus”. The Song of Solomon perfectly put it out there so that the word can be read and heard as well as lived out through our lives with Him.
Song of Solomon 1:5, I am black, but comely/ at this point I can only say, I am scared ugly, but “Jesus still loves me”. (6)Look not upon me, because I am black/ I can only say, look not upon my beauty Jesus, because I am scared black I have no beauty on my own. It is because the sun hath looked upon me that I can see my dark and ugly as well as my beauty Your beauty to be exact, the true beauty:/ it was You who looked upon my darkness and fashion me into Your glorious light and gave me beauty for my ashes.
It was because You loved me so that I came back to You into the light of intimacy with You again. Yes You are my Husband and Bridegroom friend. Yes I’m sorry Jesus for all the hurt and pain that I’ve caused You please forgive me. Let me take Your gentle hands and hold them close to me feel my chest, my heart it still beating to live for You. Ever word that comes out my mouth I will willingly glorify and praise You why? Because I will myself to You.
Oh beautiful King You have the kingdom of my heart, You sit on the seat of my mind, emotions and thoughts, Your sceptre is like life to my soul. Oh handsome King You are the one the Mighty one that my soul and spirit loves and adore.
Ugly Duckling: Thank You Jesus for turning my ugly duckling into a crackling smile I can smile when the world has a frown I can feel the weight lifting off my shoulders just because I’m smiling it was a hard pressure in my chest but Jesus You came and lifted it all away. Hallelujah. You have turn my ugly duckling into a happy big beautiful smile.
If you don’t know the love of Jesus Christ and you’re thinking about giving Him your heart please do that will be the best decision you will ever make for the rest of your life. Amen 🙏